Lalalaaaa

Yay! I've finally found a chinese webbie that's able to stream songs through WMP. And I've always thought it's impossible to have chinese songs playing on moi blog! That's the case no more!! Yipeeeee! HahahZ.
My very first chinese song here: 阿桑 - '保管'
Have been a fan of her ever since she sang the heart-wrenching '叶子'. With vocals perennially drenched in melancholy, her songs definitely make for good listening on a long, quiet night. Fell in lurve with '保管' the first time I heard it too! HahaZ. =)
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I'm setting sail
To traverse the sea.
But it's of no avail
Without the wind's plea...

To Believe Again

You snubbed the earnest
And scorned the heartfelt,
Then fell head-first
Into the furnace that melts
All that you stood for-
And your cynical self.
You speak of your choice
Which you adamantly hold on to.
But hadn't that familiar, trusting voice
Eroded the stubbornness that's in you?
Now would you dare stand tall
And look Love in the face,
To say that you do not abhor
Its passionate grace?
For now comes the time
When you can ignore the pain
To heed all the signs,
And believe in Love again.
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Ok. So lotsa people lose confidence or become cynical about Love maybe after some hurtful setback, or having some other twisted conviction that it only brings about a vicious cycle of nothingness, and that, in a nutshell, it is to be avoided at all costs. Well. I'm not here to preach or anything, but isn't it a pity to erect this wall between yourself and the green pastures yonder that's abundant with blossoming Love? This goes out to all who've once loved and lost, and may you find true Love again! =)
(Mmm I know I sound like a retard in this post, but the above poem was inspired by another retard's account anyway. Haha)

Post- Camp Musings

If you're looking for a narrative post chronicling the SACO camp down to the minutest detail, look elsewhere. Haha.

So everything's finally come full circle. T'was just a year ago ( somehow it seems like eons before) that I attended my first CO camp, and thoroughly enjoyed it. In retrospect, being in CO and serving in the comm was a wild and bumpy ride; ups, downs, loops, vortices, trials and tribulations and whatever else that constitutes being on high at one moment and then getting thrown into the deepest chasm ever (wow try saying that in one breath hahaZ). More often that not I'd wished I was made of sterner stuff; that the scales weren't tipped too precariously so much so that all hell'd ensue; that it wouldn't be so hard to believe in my very own convictions; that I wasn't so easily swayed... etc etc. A plethora of thoughts, and did they do any good in shaping who I am now? Maybe they did, maybe not. Life truly isn't a bed of roses. (DUH!) All I'm sure of is that I'm relieved to finally pass this on to the next batch of J1s. Let them live the legacy... well if there's a legacy to speak of in the first place! (I'd very much like to believe there is one though =) )

To all my section mates (I'll bet only Kel reads this in the end! Haha), I'll concede that a great leader I don't make. But hey, judging from the multitude of monikers (eg the infamous 'slacker leader') coined by you guys, none of you'd have doubted that! Sorry for not being able to quell that seething anger inside you guys everytime um, our skills were put under scruntiny and came under fire. Is this a fair world? Definitely not. But I've learnt to live with it, a long time ago. Maybe I'm one for peace and quiet... I don't wanna blow things up, get what I mean? It's alright to feel angry... but then where should our anger be directed at in the first place? Wouldn't it be meaningless if a constant 'battle' was waged, with the idea of enmity at the back of our minds? As we've learnt in GP, there can never be just wars, let alone a war which will bring about zero casualties. So now, heed your GP tutor's advice, and proceed with your nuclear disarmament! Peace is all in the mind. ;)

On a lighter note! I've enjoyed each and every one of your company. Very much. If it weren't for you guys, I'd not have known the true meaning of unity, or gotten that member of the month title. Wahahaha. But of course, it's the former I treasure the most, among everything else. Thank you all of ya for sustaining me through practices, for giving me 'face', and for your abundant gossips! Hahaha. I think looking after you guys (if you guys think I've ever done my part at all, that is) was a fulfilling experience. 'Cos according to me, you all are the best section mates an SL could have (and yes the last time I said this, it almost evoked tears on Mel's part! Haha).

Hey wait... it ain't even farewell yet. Which means I have to save some space for later right. Right. Ok. In conclusion, I'll say that I like the new J1 comm, and I can't wait to see them perform their respective duties. I'm sure everyone of them are capable of carrying out whatever they've been entrusted with. All the way! =)

(footnote: if I should sound incoherent to you in any way, look at my blog addie again. See the G word? HahaZ)

Your Game

A mass of checkered black and white;
I'm sprawling in the battlefield of your mind.
You finger me and I fight boredom in your stead;
You pick and drop me at your will,
But I cannot fathom your strategy still.
Thus I lie in hopeful wait,
Anticipating how you'd manipulate
The roaring emptiness that is me.
Yes please, do set me free
For I am but a lifeless pawn
In the greater scheme of your Game.
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I can't believe how rampant piracy is; Coldplay's X & Y is up for downloading daaaaaays before its official release date. No wonder record companies are crying out bloody blue murder. (Ok I'm guilty of infringing copyright laws too. But I'll eventually get the album. =P)
Read RollingStone's review here